Sending Out Bread From Heaven In Today's Busy World

  • Kayla Ferris

...Because sometimes we need a quick shot of manna to power through the day!

Psalm 16:5-6 (MSG)– “My choice is you, God, first and only.

And now I find I’m your choice!

You set me up with a house and yard.

And then you made me your heir!

Absolutely, I choose God. But some days, I forget. Some days I’m “too busy.” Some days He isn’t my first choice. But He is the only one that satisfies.

And then to think…He chose me. By name. He said, “Let’s see…I choose…Kayla.” Fill in your name. It sends butterflies in your heart. As though the Holy Spirit is stirring as it remembers the call.

And then He gave me a house with a yard. He is providing for me TODAY! He supplies today with blessings. He marks lines for me to stay within (and those lines are good and beautiful! The grass is not greener on the other side! I must run my lane and live in my house He built just for me. Amen?)

And then He made me an heir. As though He was saying “When I die, you can have my home.” And guess what? He died. And He gave me heaven.

Choose God. He chose you. Love the house He has given you now. And know someday you get to live with Him in His.

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  • Kayla Ferris

I was out taking a walk one warm evening several years ago. My heart felt so heavy. I was praying, begging, God to show me “His Will” for my life. That ultimate, seemingly elusive plan that He had for me. “What big thing can I do for you, Lord?! Just show me! I’m ready! I’ll say YES! Please show me Your will.….” And what followed was silence.

I know there have been people who have prayed such a prayer and God has answered in big ways. But that isn’t my story.

My story is about quiet and growing slowly in the dark places. Like a seed in the earth.

Isn’t that exciting?! Ha!

But I think that was part of the problem. I wanted exciting!! I was told God had “big plans for me” and I translated that into “there is one big exciting awesome plan that God specifically designed you for and it is your job to go find that one big plan (DON’T MISS IT!! Your life will be a waste if you do!!) and execute that plan and when you do, your life will be exciting and fulfilled.”

But y’all. Being a stay-at-home-mom to four daughters out on the farm was not exactly everyday “exciting.” It was hard…and exhausting. And changing diapers and cleaning up Cheerios and drowning in mountains of laundry sure didn’t feel like kingdom work. I wasn’t going to bed every night thinking how fulfilling my work that day had been.

(Oh, Pinterest, you are hilarious!) So I prayed that God would show me “His Will”…His Big Plan…why He created me! And the answer was quiet.

Because it turns out, He didn’t create me to DO. What He wanted for my life was for me to BE with Him. Simple, quiet growing. Instead of giving me tasks, God gave me love. He tore down some areas in my life that were built on sand. And He rebuilt on the solid Rock. He walked me through storms. He chiseled away at my heart. He opened my eyes and closed His arms in embrace. He taught me His heart. And then slowly, ever so slowly, that love has started to overflow into what I do.

Bob Goff has a new book releasing this April titled Everybody, Always. He recently posted this quote from the book:

I love that. It’s so simple. We aren’t going to miss THE plan for our lives. HE is the plan!! He is our fulfillment. Perhaps, like me, you need to hear it too. God has a plan for your life, and I know what it is. Love Him. Seek Him. Walk close to Him. Let Him work in the quiet, dark places. Trust Him. He will guide your steps. And then let that Love overflow on everyone around you. If we are doing that, we are doing alright.

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  • Kayla Ferris

I am strong. When something hard comes up, I just have to dig deep inside of myself and find the ability to power through.

Except when I can’t.

Like when winter seems to last a little longer than I would like. Or when my fibromyalgia flares up for no reason. Or when it’s the end of the day and I’m exhausted and my kids are melting down over something small. And I just can’t. I can’t power through.

I think so many times I take Philippians 4:13 and I stop it short in my heart. I say, “I can do all this!!” I can do this! I just need to try harder. Be better.

The reality is, that is not Philippians 4:13. The verse says “I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” I can only do anything by the grace of God. But what really gets me about Philippians 4:13 is actually tied to the verse right before it. The writer Paul says he has learned the secret of being content. I mean…whoa. Wise men and spiritual gurus and self-help books have been trying to help us figure this out for years. But Paul says he knows the secret. If he had a lot or a little…if things were going well or they weren’t…he said he could go through all of this “through him who gives me strength.”

Our pastor did a beautiful job of breaking this down on Sunday. He said, “Being wealthy presents major challenges and obstacles in life. Being healthy and wealthy is an enormous responsibly. Can you be wealthy through Christ who gives you strength? Being poor creates anxiety and fear. Can you be poor through Christ who gives you strength? Can you be single through Christ who gives you strength?

Can you stay married through Christ who strengthens you?

Can you hold on to God’s truth and plan for sexuality through Christ who gives you strength?

Can you hold on to a job that you hate through Christ who strengthens you? Can you raise children through Christ who gives you strength?

Can you grow old through Christ who gives you strength?

Can you walk through the valley of infertility through Christ who strengthens you?” For me personally…can I endure a little more winter, through Christ who can give me the strength? Can I hang on to hope during the pain, through Christ who strengthens me? Can I be present for my children at the end of the day? Goodness knows…only through Christ.

Our world is telling us that we are enough. It sweetly tells us that we just need to find our “inner strength.” And I have believed the lie for too long. I reached the bottom of my own strength. I came up empty and was left disappointed and feeling hopeless. How do I combat the temptation to try to handle these situations with my own muscle?! This is how our pastor ended his message, “I am tempted to pursue my contentment through my own power and through my own strength and through my own resources. So what I’m learning is the best way for me to combat this false teaching is through prayer. Because prayer is an expression of dependence on His power.

To me, this means before I ever get to the bottom of my strength barrel, I need to pray to the one who gives me strength and I tell Him (and remind myself) “I can’t do this on my own.”

That might sound like weakness to the world. But Christ says when I am weak, then I am strong. So I’ll boast in my weakness today. I can’t do this on my own. I need Jesus. HE is strong. Not me.

Kayla Ferris

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